Day 1 Pre-Surgery ... Another Video

So, I got some more information from my cardiovascular surgeon this morning. First he sent his PA in ... wow! What a hunk of a hottie he is! He discussed options, and I told him that my mother was flying in from Maine tonight so she can be here for my surgery. He said Wednesday they were doing a few 'cabbages' so Thursday may be better. He will talk with the surgeon. 


Get this: He told me not to worry too much. He said he knows it's easier said than done, but "let us worry about everything because we've done this thousands of times" with that big straight-toothed, white grin. The man should have been a model for GQ, not a PA! He wrote me a script for xanax ... hope it helps my anxiety.


I'm scheduled for surgery on Thursday morning ... not sure what to feel or think currently. It seems that these past few days have flown by so swiftly! Wednesday evening I didn't even know I had CAD (coronary artery disease) and Friday morning I was being told I needed CABG (coronary artery bypass graft) How strange is that? I remember the tears pouring down my cheeks as I lay there listening in horror as the cath physician explained my two options ... or death. So surreal.


So, they came up to bring down for a CXR (chest x-ray) and now I'm back in my room just waiting ... waiting ... waiting. Now the time will crawl. OK, the following video is short, real footage, and really interesting ... I would love to watch one (not mine!) someday ... 


Peace, Love, & Blessings to All ✝ ✝


Kathi ♥ ♥ ♬ ♫ ♪

Thoughts About My Diagnosis ...

My mind is reeling with thoughts of my heart being stopped while the surgeon removes pieces of the saphenous vein in my leg and bypasses the arteries in my heart. I don't think I've ever been so uneasy about anything in my entire Life ... I wish it were over already and I was in the recovery stage.

I was diagnosed on Friday, April 8th ... 2011. What kind of prank is the Universe playing on me this time? I realize that I've lived my entire adult Life as though there were no history of heart disease or diabetes in both sides of my family, but I'm only 49 years old! I haven't even begun living yet! I just graduated from nursing school a year ago ... changed careers in mid-Life ... is this some type of karmic repayment?

I know, I know ... God doesn't give us anything we can not handle ... and I do believe that. I guess I should be grateful that my dreams (nightmares) and other events led me to the ED on Thursday ... and grateful that my PCP was knowledgable enough to say: "I think I want to do a cardiac catheterization on you to see definitively what's happening in your heart." (Much to my dismay, I might add ... but thank God for smart physicians!)

So, anyway, here's a video that will explain exactly what CABG surgery is and how it is performed ... I found this video interesting, yet quite intimidating ... This is going to be MY surgery ... MY heart being controlled ... MY Life in someone else's hands ...